Earlier this year I set out a few goals for the year. One of which was to complete my first ultramarathon. Being in a new relationship with an ultrarunner, I felt it extremely necessary to determine whether or not I really do hate running. Since I have completed a couple half marathons this year, I felt ready to kick it up a notch. Christian had been invited back to the BVI to run Tortola Torture and stay with the race director and his wife. Since I was going to be going with him I felt it was a great opportunity for me to complete my first ultra.
Lastly, driving to the airport I was filled with visions of the kid who came up to the desk I was sitting on, and just plopped down right next to me without saying a single word. After I finished my answer to another student, I looked at him and said, "well, hello, what's up?"
"I just like you," he said.
“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.” - Buddha
Two of the biggest lessons my mother taught me. One, to love myself deeper than I love anybody else, because you cannot truly love anybody else unless you love yourself. And second, to walk with confidence, gaze forward, shoulders back, she taught me how to own a room. Regardless of how I'm feeling... and, well, when your mom looks like a sex kitten, she can definitely teach you how to walk.
You know how there are people that dive into a pool when the water is freezing? Over the past couple of months I've proved that I'm just not that type of girl. How many times are we going to have the I-quit-my-job post? One more time, apparently.
"Someone once told me not to bite off more than I can chew. I would rather choke on greatness than nibble on mediocrity." - unknown
Everyone told me, "no one will care Christian, we are always getting hit up for this stuff." - But I didn't listen, and as of today, people have donated $1,095 in support of my efforts, but I am hoping that we can get to $3000 before I run. It's the least we can do for the brave souls that fight for our freedom day in and day out, you know?
I’m sweating bullets.
Intimidated? Oh hell yea. Sitting on top of a desk in a classroom of 30, tough-looking, tattooed inmates, all looking at me, has a way of breeding intimidation. I could only imagine what they might be thinking, “who is this dude?” or “what kind of sunshine crap are they going to feed us this time…?”
What does Live for a Living mean to me?
I look at it as a tool to motivate other’s to be the best versions of themselves, regardless of the obstacles they’ve faced.
I have made the decision, very recently, to pursue a new career path in fitness. For the past several years fitness has been the main focus of my existence. I love watching people do things they didn’t know they were capable of doing. Especially women. Since starting this fitness journey, I’ve always wanted to make it a career, but I’ve been scared.